hey! thnx hidayah for being so encouraging. yeah, me thinks so too. guess things DO happen for a reason. we'll only the final result when the time comes eh?

but my promises remain. i don think i'll change them. for the past 3 yrs, ( think it's 4 actually), i've stuck to them. though during certain periods i began to suspect myself and i bailed. but other then tt i've always stuck to whatever i had said. so u see, certain things do remain, and i'd love very much to keep things tt way.

heard Alicia Keys' IF I AINT GOT YOU? it's really true k? i cant believe it. it's like writing abt everyone's lives. each of us fall into certain categories. we somtimes live cos of $$, or for fame.

Some people live for the fortune/Some people live just for the fame/Some people live for the power yeah/Some people live just to play the game/Some people think that the physical things/Define what's within/And I've been there before/But that life's a bore/So full of the superficial

Some people want it all/But I don't want nothing at all/If it ain't you baby/If I ain't got you baby/Some people want diamond rings/Some just want everythingBut everything means nothing/If I ain't got you

but seriously, we all would someday fall in the category of not wanting anything except tt someone. it maybe be ur best fren, or ur kid, or ur sibling, or ur relative. lost does hurt. been thru 2 losses, 4 actually. one or two i was too young to really know. but hey, when u have lost, u will know what it feels like. not only do u just lose tt person, u lose everything. ur sense of direction, ur faith, or confidence. everything just falls apart.

oh well. spent the entire day at home. talked on the phone for like, 1.5 hrs to some 'i'm sick in bed' person. heh, but at least i felt better this wk. i know i'm capable of fighting for my rights, and my beliefs. tt i can stand up to pple who think tt i'm some softie who simply gives in to be accepted. LISTEN GOOD. i don seek acceptance. i'll be who i choose to be, cos really, if u don accept me i cant convince u to.don expect me to be some pushover.i have loads of stuff to do too, i don sit at home all day and do homework.

party stuff: yes, meeting on saturday will be early. pls don tell andrew lim abt it. pls come prepared to write what u wanna say to him. anything is fine. even if u say u love him 'till death do us part'( i can imagine who would write tt, *nudge nudge*) pls bring money. think i'll only buy like 12 pints of beer. so no stealing k? hahah!

to james: hey! i'm game for ur challenge. 2007, 2008...

to eve: happie early 19th bday.

to matt: hey thnx for talking to me man, i seriously could be on the brink of madness with all the things gg on.

to the rest of yer: love u heaps!