where should i go from here?

it was an enjoyable night.

enjoyable, yet not pleasurable- Screening.

foodies set free!

conversation. ramblings. intellectual stimulation. lame crap.

ultimate male shopping match. $100 in under 30 minutes without batting the eyelids.

hardfought all-day ice cream craving gave way to ultimate hot fudge treat at swensen's.

ignored cameraphone picture-taking temptation. nothing beats reality.

besides, the mind works best in capturing the essence of the time...

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but there's always a level of upset. perhaps it's just my expectations. that i've always sought to make everyone i like/ am comfortable with comfortable with one another. or in some ways, acquainted. and hopefully, reach a point that they are well acquainted with one another at the very least.

i'm quite unsure about how i should be going from here. it is less complicated than i think it is? could the process be far easier if everything happened at a better time? would it have been better if things could just fall in place?

i think i'm piling too much on her. it's a burden i know. and i don't know how i'm going to try find a way out now that someone new moves into the picture. and kind of upsets the equilibrium of normalcy.

hopefully this would be just a passing phase. and then someday everything will be okay once i try to seek a balance again. so everyone can just hang out, like we've all known each other for long.

idealistic. but ain't life mostly about dreaming? besides, this is too big an endeavour for me to give up on. :)