4th jan... strange that we entered the new year. just a few hours ago, i happily scrawled 040104 on my test paper. then realizing my mistake, made a messy cancellation mark to change it to 040105... heh heh...
it's funny how 04 has past us by. it really felt like days ago when we talked about our futures, like we were so sure of what we wanted. we planned our holidays like we had all the money in the world. we went out, sat on the steps and chit chatted like we haven got a care in the world ( for the moments when we were together we really didnt care). what would you do without friends?
now that 05 is here, it really freaks me out... because Joyce is going away to Aust.! i know, i may sound ridiculous, cos Joyce will always be there for me. And there's always Hid. you may say. But it would definitely feel weird when she leaves. cos it's like suddenly, u lose this part of yourself, like a limb or a part of your soul. you just dont feel... 'perfect'. last year, James left, Lei left... ok let's not talk about closeness. however, the lack of (almost) immediate security in the ability to contact the person can KILL. i mean it... when things happen, u get this sense of helplessness cos you cant get the advise of these people...
the most comforting thing would actually be that XH is forever reachable, despite the fact that at times i get frustrated that she doesnt reply fast enough. hahahha!( im sorry)
i reckon i need to count my blessings that i can still be sitting here and typing this, especially since the 'famous' phuket/bali trip never came true for everyone's been too busy and all. therefore my resolution for this year would be to learn to not be bothered by trivialities( is there such a word to describe trivial-ness). and also to become a better person overall... =)