as much as i suffer from elephant's memory

and tend to forget salient details in most times of need..

a conversation which i still remember clearly. after some 4 or 5 years. perhaps it's how real and telling the whole 'analysis' was that it's become quite very much one of how i look at life and people now. of course i don't follow every single suggestion, but they've been very much ones to seek solutions in.

"A: there's two types of people you experience in your life.

1. those whom you see potential in. of which the theory of 'you have to be cruel to be kind' will come into play. in hopes to help them become better people and learn things quickly. of course you dont expect to keep everyone as a friend in this situation. so you have to learn to let go. and you have to- otherwise it will somehow eat into your conscience. asking you questions of whether you could have done more as a friend, as a mentor, as anything at all.

2. there's those whom you don't give two fucks about. chances are they're either not worth respecting at all. or that they've ensured that you've lost every single inch of respect you have for them through some reasons, of which others tend not to understand. but do not try to seek other's understanding, for they are not in the situation and are not required to understand- unless totally necessary."