i'm not happy. honest.

end of semester. again. i don't exactly know whether i should be elated for my heart feels heavy, my eyes teary.

reckon it's because i've bombed at the exams. this time for real. it doesn't matter if i stayed till the end of the time allocated for the exam papers. but i just couldn't do them with ease. i was in fact, to be honest, Struggling, just to complete each paper before the time was up.

once again, i'm at war with myself. wondering if i should have spent more time on revision, playing less, slacking less, lazing around less. naturally, the answer would be 'yes'. it's quite rhetorical right?!

but it's all over now. i can't really hit the rewind button and go back, can i? i'm not exactly elated now.

right, i can't possibly be elated if i'm feeling that unhappy. that dissatisfied. that pathetic.

i'm so afraid. guess i need to enlist someone's help to check my results again this semester. the question now is... Who?