life is like an equation. it's supposed to be perfect- balanced.

however, having been a very lousy math student, i have come to realize that my 'life is like an equation' theory doesn't really work.

there's always imbalances. things that detract us, or obstacle us.. i don know. there's always something.

life is supposed to beautiful, like a perfect balanced equation. however, sad to say it hardly happens for most of us.

most of us let things we like or covet go, and we just continue with life. despite the regrets we always tell ourselves that we'll find other things way better than what we actually wanted.

then we look for replacements( aka substitutes in economic terms). they may not be as fantastic or be what we really want. at times they can turn out to be better. but essentially. we continue to look for that one simple thing that fits into the equation that we try to work out.

sad to say, i'm one amongst the hordes of people trying to complete my equation. maybe that's the only equation i could get right. but i'm still trying to decipher the magic figure. it's difficult to find but i keep having this feeling that i've found it. i'm just waiting for it to happen. waiting and hoping. i guess only time will tell.

i have been wanting to tell someone loads of stuff. but i dont really know where to begin. maybe some advice is needed. maybe i dont really have the ability to smoke my way through( as what many of my friends in history class called me) in everything. maybe i dont possess even gift in speaking with loads of sense as many who have received innuendoes i used on them. maybe, just maybe... i dont really know what i say will carry any weight at all for so far nothing seems to matter. and nothing seems to work.

someday we'll know i guess. and i hope i do know eventually.